Sunday, December 30, 2012

Happy New Year

As the year ends & A new dawn begins, I thank you Almighty, For all you have done. For the bigger family, For the timely celebrations and The same year of 'untimely' sorrows, For the addition of friends, Of whom some are real "cool", For the deletion of loved ones, Of whom some some were missed & grieved a lot, For solving a big puzzle, And for my entry in the new one, For my 'Home coming' & The fight before ,not to forget the grief of the 'Lost years'.. For the 'super heroes', My new role models, For the life I dream, An action packed one,& For d aversion towards things any lesser, LORD u have made me, A lover, a forgiver, A dreamer, a fighter, And as I wait on u, I know ,there's a lot in me, U want to mould, So here I am LORD, In you hands find refuge, Coz there's no one, A potter as good as you.

Thursday, October 25, 2012


"In Moments like this, I Sing out a song...I Sing out a LUV song to JESUS..." I guess u all who have spent a lot of time in church or know fair number of worship songs would know this song.. Humming this song one night during my work,Suddenly it stuck my mind that it's not the best moment to sing this song.The reason,I felt all alone, stranded somewhere in the middle of my life having no or very less hope for my future and nobody to cling to for support.I'v been there and I know how it feels when our mind is gripped by these thoughts. But still,somewhere deep inside I felt gratitude that my life is not so bad,as it could have been.I am thankful that in all these circumstances I still have some hope left in HIM,who I know makes all things beautiful..In HIS time..I know the one who turns bitter water sweet.And when I imagined HIS abounding grace for the worst sinner (that's ME)in this world,I felt so stupid,when I thought this moment is not worth it. Friends, have you seen a sea and have you ever heard it's silence,if yes you would also know that the sea is most silent just before a High tide hits the bank. Yeah,I know now that this is the best moment of my life.And now I've learnt to love this calmness,this silence,these failures,those moments when nothing goes according to my plans coz when I see my life as still as sea,I know and I can see through my eyes of faith,a large tide ready to drench me,ready to turn my right side up :)ready to let me drown once again in HIS love. "In this moment of Nowhereness,do I find him working for my whereabouts" So summing up, I know a DAWN, I see it from a distance, and that's why i luv this night, coz if it hadn't been this dark a night, Wouldn't get lost up in this beauty at sight.. And now Am all ready to embrace,that what my saviour has for me prepared. Have you ever had similar experiences,do share,and remember HE has already promised in Jeremiah 29:11- For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. So go on.. and sing out a LOVE SONG to HIM to JESUS the LOVER of your soul.

Sunday, April 8, 2012

In Vain..

In Vain,In Vain the life goes by
In vain In Vain we shout n cry
In vain are d plannings n d cries
In vain are all those pains,
Coz this remains, unless the lord be with us
EVERYTHING indeed In Vain...

In vain were the tears,
In Vain were the fears,
In vain were your assets mere,
coz this remains, unless the Lord b wit us
EVERYTHING indeed In Vain

those sleepless nights,
those early days,
those different relations,
those different ways,
the love,the hatred,
the gloom,the laughter,
the pride,the ego,
the fight,the foe
Coz this remains forever,
unless the LORD builds,

Sunday, October 3, 2010


It was long time back.I don't remember the date still I feel,it was 4 or 5 years earlier.My father who is a pastor was preaching in a house nearby.The people of that house were Christians but did not believed in JESUS.My dad was giving the sermon from john 21.
From my childhood I've studied the four book of gospels and specially the book of John.But this chapter had no special effects in my life,till that evening.

It happened when this time I read this chapter and felt it speaking to me.I want to tell you in my words what I felt,and what changed me.

We read in this chapter after Crucifixion,Christ was raised to life,and after that he was seen by many of his disciples.After these instances is what happens in this chapter.Simon Peter along with few fellow disciples went for fishing and tried very hard the whole night,but caught nothing.

Early in the morning,JESUS went there,and told them to put the net in their right side.And so they caught many fish{its written 153 large fishes}.After that they came to the shore,sat with Jesus and ate bread and fish.

During this conversation,JESUS looked at SIMON PETER and asked,"Simon son of John, do you truly love me more than these?"

I've wondered many a times why Peter? Why did JESUS asked him?We all remember that earlier peter had rejected JESUS 3 TIMES,may be that's why he was being asked.Or it may be that,the things which peter had left to follow JESUS,he took the very old things back.Whatever be the reason Peter knew why JESUS was asking him this question?

I want you all who are reading my blog,to visualize in the mind this very scene.When I was hearing this sermon I visualized it and saw,Jesus looking with calm eyes towards peter.Their beside them lay the net full of large fishes.The very fishes for which peter was not able to sleep the last night.The same fishes for which he once again tried very hard but still failed.The same net,which he had left in the boat,when JESUS said to him "Follow me".He saw everything,then he looked towards JESUS.Jesus who was still looking in his face with love in his eyes, asked-"DO YOU TRULY LOVE ME MORE THAN THESE?"

Silence....I wonder,what I could have answered,If JESUS would have asked me the same question.

If JESUS is asking the same question to you,what will be your answer?
There before you is JESUS,the one who created you in your mothers womb,who was with you all through your life,who gave you everything you've asked for,the loving parents you needed,your best friends,your studies,your job,your kids,he gave HIS life so that you can be free.He died so that you can live.

And on the other side of you is your dreams,your aims,your aspirations in life,the fame you want,the money you want to earn,the education you want to have,the love of your life,your kids whom you love so much,the house you want so badly....everything for which you have tried so hard.The things for which you have laboured in vain.the things for which you have lost your sleep and your mind's peace,everything which you've ever dreamt of having,is in front of you.

And still JESUS is asking-"My son, My daughter,DO YOU LOVE ME MORE THAN THESE?"

My dear friends,what will your answer be?It is up to you to decide.JESUS is still looking towards you,waiting patiently for an answer.I hope we all should be able to say-


Tuesday, March 9, 2010


Today when I was reading the parable of the prodigal son(Luke 15),I was motivated to share wat I'v learnt from this parable.Hope you all understand this.May god bless u!

LUKE 15;11-31"Jesus continued: "There was a man who had two sons.The younger one said to his father, 'Father, give me my share of the estate.' So he divided his property between them......."

This parable is one of the most famous parables told by Jesus.I guess most of you would have read or heard this parable many a times.

When we go through this parable,we can imagine a scene of a family,wer d younger son 'wants'his share of the property,n after having it leaves his place to live life at 'its fullest'!

When I read through this passage,I pictured myself first as the son,'who wants his share' n JESUS,as d Father 'who gives his son the share'.

# So,I went up to the father(JESUS)AND ASKED FOR MY SHARE OF BLESSINGS-My life,my parents,my friends,my job,my spouse,my children,my health,my relatives,my status,my income.........n everything I could ask HIM.I wanted MY SHARE.And being my loving father HE gave me MY,My life,my parents,my friends,my job,my spouse,my children,my health,my relatives,my status,my income.........n everything.
But wat happened then was a little hardening of my heart;when I got,what I asked for;I forgot about my father and 'set off for a distant country'
ie,I got everything I asked from my father n then left him n went far from him.Just because I thought I have everything in life,n I don't need my father for anything else!
In other words I was trying to find satisfaction in life. I was trying to find love, joy, and peace.Like the young man, I yearned for a feeling of well-being, peace, security, fun, and happiness. Also like him, I pursued after them, attempting to produce them in virtually every way except the Father's way.

But alas,one day it finished.All my attempts to find happiness came to an end.I spent everything I had;ie,the things I had were limited,they wer not everlasting!
I,like him, experienced the same empty, hollow, something-is-missing feelings.

Some may remember a popular song of a few decades ago sung by Peggy Lee titled "Is That All There Is?" The lyrics dealt with this very subject. The singer recounts having tried so many supposedly exciting and fulfilling things in life yet having found no lasting satisfaction in any of them. Following each experience, she concludes by asking the question, "Is that all there is?" The song clearly expresses that such a life is not truly fulfilling.

The far country symbolizes forgetfulness of God (Deuteronomy 8:11, 14, 19), the condition Paul describes as "alienated from the life of God" (Ephesians 4:17-19). All the dissatisfied young man wants to do is to satisfy his senses and desires. After disillusionment, destitution, and degradation, the prodigal, feeling no longer worthy to be called a son, decides to ask his father to make him one of his servants.

The far country is the place people go to remove themselves as far from God the Father as possible. It represents the world, the place where evil flourishes, where it is the norm, popular, and acceptable. In it, the perversions of society—lying, adultery, abortion, homosexuality, and many others—are tolerated and even celebrated (I John 2:15-17).

The far country signifies the abode of the ungodly, those with whom the prodigal son feels most comfortable. The righteous cause him discomfort because he cannot drink, smoke, cuss, or tell dirty jokes when he is with them. The godly stifle him because he feels pressured to produce the fruit of self-control. The far country is the state of mind that is enmity toward God (Romans 8:7).

So wen it was all over,I came to my senses,(verse 17).That means formerly I was not in my sense,but wen the need arises,I remembered my father.But till now I was so much full of guilt n shame that 'I thought',Iam not worthy to be called HIS son,I'll be like one of HIS hired men.

BUT when I was still a long way off,I saw that whatever I had conceived in my mind were of no use.Cz when I saw,my father saw me and was filled with compassion for me; he ran to me, threw his arms around me and kissed me.!!!!!!!!

Dear friends,this is the best part of the parable,whatever I had planned ;to give a big speech in front of my father,to cry,to fall at his feet n beg,to ask him to make me my servant,all were a waste!cz when I was far way off home,my father came running,with his arms open!
Oh!I cant ever measure the love with which he was looking at me!Oh!I cant wonder,How much he must have waited for me,days after days,years after years looking through the door,waiting for me to come home,waiting to hug me,waiting to hear me call him 'ABBA FATHER'!
And then he hugged me,kissed me,dressed me up in the best robe,'the robe of righteousness',discarding the previous robe which i had,the robe full of dirt n filth of this world.
Put a ring on my finger which shows the authority I got from him,n sandals on my feet,so that my feets dont get dirty in the sin again!!!
And then he gave a feast to show me off to others!He made me a testimony for HIM!
'For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found'!!!!

Friends,I hope that I have succeeded in what i wanted to explain to you.If we understand the happiness of our father then only we can value the salvation which we have received!

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses,let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.Hebrews 12:1

GOD BLESS U ALL!Feel free to contact me for any feedback or queries.

Friday, February 12, 2010



PRAISE THE LORD!!Today its the starting of my 22nd year in this world!!So,when i thought about my past 21 yrs I couldn't wait to share with all of my friends the BLESSED 21 yrs my creator has given me,n also about the blessings he has kept for me in the days to come!!

So,I would start from the song which I have written..AMAZING GRACE!HOW SWEET THE SOUND THAT SAVED A WRETCH LIKE ME!!!
I ONCE WAS LOST BUT NOW AM FOUND!,WAS BLIND BUT NOW I SEE!..This song exactly describes the testimony!YES! AMAZING IT WAS!

I was born on 13.2.88,born in a Malayalam christian pentecostal family,as the 3rd daughter(i have 2 elder sisters and a younger brother).My parents came from kerala,but due to job issues were settled in bhilai,chattisgarh(where i live presently).Being the 3rd daughter,life was very easy on me as I had elder 2 sisters to guide me,counsel me,n tease me!But life took a twist,when just I was 2 and a half yrs old,with the birth of my younger brother!DANIEL!I was too young to understand anything n when everybody started caring n loving my brother I was emotionally hurt,n felt alone!
No!don't get me wrong,it was not any body's fault,My parents loved me as much as my other siblings n much more!But still from a very young age devil started to disturb my spiritual front by creeping in my mind in the form of loneliness.So, as a result I was alone all through my age,with only a friend or two in hand,n without the ability to make any new friends,with a big family around me,n yet being alone in my inner self!

So,Life was going on,with me going to church every Sunday(as my father is very spiritual)singing praises,testifying Jesus,praying,but without any connection with JESUS!
When I was 15 yrs old,I felt a need of love!Not that nobody loved me,but even though I HAD PLENTY OF PEOPLE TO LOVE ME STILL I FELT UNLOVED!So,I craved for TRUE LOVE!
Going on,I fell in love with a person who loved me much more than I loved him!He loved me before I was born!Yes!He was JESUS!So,I came to know about my creator,the love he has for me,he died for my sins n all,I believed in his love,n testified it n took water baptism on 23 march 2003,I was blessed by the gift of tongues,n was very happy at that phase of life.

But,just like a baby,who withought having food n water cannot grow strong,in the same way,my spiritual front became very weak without bible,n holy spirit,as a result I grew weak n when temptations came in my life I failed.

I grew weaker,with a sense of guilt in my heart n without the courage to return back to my first love JESUS n ask for his forgiveness!2004-early 2009,I would say was a dark age in my life,without the love of JESUS.
Outside I was happy,enjoying every bit of my life,having many friends,but not having the strength to stand in the presence of JESUS!I was far from him or I thought so,but he never got far away he was just behind me,looking at me with all the grace he has!I noticed it late.
So,at last I noticed it,in early 2009,through many of HIS servants who came into our house(as my father had also become a pastor)n meeting after meeting,month after month,he reminded me of HIS FIRST LOVE,HIS GREAT UNFAILING N EVERLASTING LOVE.

And when I realised His love,I took all my strength to stand before him,face my Abba father,ask for his forgiveness,ask him to cleanse me n make me pure as HE is,ask his grace to surround me,to fill every single cell of my body with HIS love!

Today the only thing in my life which I can boast about is My relation with my Abba father,the love of my life,the only reason of my life!He made me righteous as he is!He made me pure as he is!He made me holy as he is!and is still making!Now I can stand before HIM just as a child stands before his father n asks for any favour he wants,boldly now I stand n ask n HE provides!

To testify i would tell u about the incident that took place on 10th Feb 2010,It was my graduation ceremony.I got ready took my hand bag n went to attend it to have a bash with all my friends whom i haven't seen since past 6 months!After the party was over n my gossips ended,I noticed that my handbag was missing.I searched here n there but all in vain,I was very tensed coz the bag contained my ATM card,PAN card,n key of my scooty!When i was very much stressed,I remembered my father is also with me,MY JESUS.I looked up to my father n said "father I am ur child,I have got ur seal,in the same way everything I own have your seal,so the things sealed by you cannot ne touched by devil"!Then i ordered angels of heaven GABRIEL n Michael," I am the daughter of JESUS n I command u to get me my bag,if u don't get,the judgement lies on my father's hand".I left my mobile no. with the guard of the college,n came home praising n thanking lord in faith for the bag.At around 1:00 am midnight my mobile rang when I picked up the phone,it was the guard saying we got ur bag !PRAISE GOD!When i reached college,I was amazed at what I saw my whole bag was open,but not a single penny was missing.HALLELUIJAH!
I praise my father,thank him for all the wonders he has done in my life n is still doing!
Today when i look back,I have been blessed by so much love that words cant express,temptations still come,problems still come,loneliness still comes,BUT THE ONE WHO HAS CALLED ME IS FAITHFUL!

Saturday, January 30, 2010

The existence of God!

To begin our study in Bible doctrine, we ought to begin with God.

We are constantly challenged by atheists, skeptics and hecklers to prove that there is a God.

It is difficult for natural man to believe in something that he cannot see, touch or feel (I Cor. 2:14).

The problem for the Christian is solved with the first verse of the Bible, "In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth" (Gen. 1:1).

The Bible is not a textbook that attempts to prove the existence of God - the Bible opens with a positive fact that God does exist.

It did not occur to any other writer of the Bible to prove this fact.

The Bible plainly states that it is the fool who denies the existence of God.

Psa. 14:1, "The fool hath said in his heart, There is no God."

Anyone with any intelligence would acknowledge the evident fact of a living God.

The greatest proof apart from Scripture of the existence of God is our daily fellowship with Him in prayer.

I know that there is a God because I talked to Him today and He heard and answered the prayer of my heart though it was only whispered silently.

Psa. 19:1, 'The heavens declare the glory of God; and the firmament sheweth His handywork." The beauty and glory of the heavens speak loudly saying, "God exists."

Rom. 1:20 goes farther and suggests that creation even teaches about the eternal power of the Godhead, "For the invisible things of Him from the creation of the world are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even His eternal power and Godhead; so that they are without excuse."

The man who accepts Scripture will readily acknowledge the existence of God.

Let us study some other less convincing but nevertheless powerful arguments.

Man is born with a universal belief in a supreme Being; no tribe has yet been discovered that lacks this. They know that some Being creates and controls.

Rom. 2:15, "Which shew the work of the law written in their hearts, their conscience also bearing witness, and their thoughts the mean while accusing or else excusing one another." The existence of God is written in the human conscience.

Acts 17:23, "For as I passed by, and beheld your devotions, I found an altar with this inscription, To the Unknown God." Conscience told them that there was a God though they did not know Him personally.

Some atheists may claim that their conscience does not tell them about God.

It is doubtful if a genuine atheist can be found for at best they are men who have stilled conscience by blatant unbelief.

Some men are so blind that they may deny the existence of the sun in the sky but that does not alter the fact that the sun exists, rises and sets each day.

None are so blind as those who refuse to see. The honest man will find that the inner still small voice says that God exists and is alive today.

Men deny the existence of God not because they cannot find Him but because they are afraid to face the responsibility of being accountable to Him alter death.

Atheism is one of the devil's tools to put men to sleep without accepting salvation.

If there is no God then I am not responsible to anyone and I can live and die as I please. but in the quieter moments of reflection the conscience of every man whispers, There is a God" and only fools deny it.

To look up and see a plane and not see the pilot and say that the plane is pilotless is as ridiculous as looking into the heavens and saying that there is no God simply because we cannot see Him.

Few of us have ever seen our brains, yet we believe that we possess them because of a centralized control system in the body. Because we see creation, we believe in God.

The world is here. It must have come from somewhere. Somebody or something must have caused it to come into being at one time or another.

Here is a book. Someone must have written it. No printing press can of itself produce a book, be it ever so modern a press with the latest electrical gadgets.

Someone built the building. Someone created the trees. Someone operates the universe.

If all the pieces of a watch were placed in a can and the can shaken gently for a million years the watch would not be "accidentally" put together and running.

The only sensible answer to the problem of the existence of the world is the existence of an intelligent Being whom we call God.

A watch not only exists but it has a designer. It was planned for a specific purpose.

A watch was not designed for mosquitoes to live in. It was designed by a keen mind for the purpose of accurately telling the time.

An examination of the world and the things large and small shows that each is designed by an intelligent mind for a specific purpose in life.

The colors of the bird and means of defence of the animals are not accidents. They are the result of a plan of a superior planning mind of the originator.

V. THE MORAL ARGUMENT (Anthropological)
Man has an intellectual and moral nature showing that the Creator must not be merely an inanimate force but a living, intelligent moral Being.

Gen. 1:26, "Let us make man in our image, after our likeness."

Gen. 1:27, God created man in the image and likeness of God, that is, patterned after Him.

Pea. 94:9, "He that planted the ear, shall He not hear? He that formed the eye, shall He not see?" God has given to man ears, eyes, knowledge, intelligence, and will power for these are the things that He possesses.

Conscience teaches man right and wrong, good and bad; for the Creator is a moral Being that is holy, and loves righteousness but abhors evil.

Life comes from life and the original life must have come from a Being possessing eternal life, that is, life that existed before physical life was created.

Where can such life be found? It can only be found in God who possesses eternal life. Psa. 36:9, "For with Thee is the fountain (source) of life."

The apple tree gets its life from the parent tree, the lamb from the mother sheep. But where did they get life from? We go back to the original creation.

Jesus said in John 11:25, "I am... life," also in John 14:6, "I am ... life," and in John 10:28, "And I give unto them eternal life."

All life proceeds from God. The theory of spontaneous generation has been proved false and completely unacceptable to authoritative science.

Life must have a beginning. The only logical answer is that beginning was with God.

The theory of atheism solves no problems but only multiplies unsolved mysteries.

The acceptance of the existence of God as Creator of the world is like a magic key that fits all the facts of Scripture, revelation, knowledge and science.

This irrefutable doctrine is held tenaciously by multitudes of souls who are willing both to live and die in the consolation of this assurance.

Atheism which is only giant doubt and unbelief can only lead to darkness and despair for the one accepting it.

Acceptance of Gen. 1:1, "In the beginning God," leads a sincere seeker into the path of a fuller revelation of God Himself.

Heb. 11:6, "He that cometh to God must believe that He Is [exists)."
A MESSAGE BY Rev Alban Douglas:

Let us come as children in simple faith, based on the revelation of God in Scripture and nature, believing and trusting Him completely.

Did God write the Bible as a textbook to prove His existence? Explain.
What is an atheist in the eyes of the Lord?
Give two Scriptures to prove the existence of God.
Why in Acts 17:23 had the people of Athens built an altar to the unknown God?
What is the atheist's real purpose in denying the existence of God?
What is the argument from cause to prove the existence of God?
What is the argument from design to prove God's existence?
How do we know that God is not an inanimate force?
What is the life argument that proves God's existence?
What is a prerequisite for faith in God?