"AMAZING GRACE!HOW SWEET THE SOUND THAT SAVED A WRETCH LIKE ME!!!
I ONCE WAS LOST BUT NOW AM FOUND!,WAS BLIND BUT NOW I SEE!!"
PRAISE THE LORD!!Today its the starting of my 22nd year in this world!!So,when i thought about my past 21 yrs I couldn't wait to share with all of my friends the BLESSED 21 yrs my creator has given me,n also about the blessings he has kept for me in the days to come!!
So,I would start from the song which I have written..AMAZING GRACE!HOW SWEET THE SOUND THAT SAVED A WRETCH LIKE ME!!!
I ONCE WAS LOST BUT NOW AM FOUND!,WAS BLIND BUT NOW I SEE!..This song exactly describes the testimony!YES! AMAZING IT WAS!
I was born on 13.2.88,born in a Malayalam christian pentecostal family,as the 3rd daughter(i have 2 elder sisters and a younger brother).My parents came from kerala,but due to job issues were settled in bhilai,chattisgarh(where i live presently).Being the 3rd daughter,life was very easy on me as I had elder 2 sisters to guide me,counsel me,n tease me!But life took a twist,when just I was 2 and a half yrs old,with the birth of my younger brother!DANIEL!I was too young to understand anything n when everybody started caring n loving my brother I was emotionally hurt,n felt alone!
No!don't get me wrong,it was not any body's fault,My parents loved me as much as my other siblings n much more!But still from a very young age devil started to disturb my spiritual front by creeping in my mind in the form of loneliness.So, as a result I was alone all through my age,with only a friend or two in hand,n without the ability to make any new friends,with a big family around me,n yet being alone in my inner self!
So,Life was going on,with me going to church every Sunday(as my father is very spiritual)singing praises,testifying Jesus,praying,but without any connection with JESUS!
When I was 15 yrs old,I felt a need of love!Not that nobody loved me,but even though I HAD PLENTY OF PEOPLE TO LOVE ME STILL I FELT UNLOVED!So,I craved for TRUE LOVE!
Going on,I fell in love with a person who loved me much more than I loved him!He loved me before I was born!Yes!He was JESUS!So,I came to know about my creator,the love he has for me,he died for my sins n all,I believed in his love,n testified it n took water baptism on 23 march 2003,I was blessed by the gift of tongues,n was very happy at that phase of life.
But,just like a baby,who withought having food n water cannot grow strong,in the same way,my spiritual front became very weak without bible,n holy spirit,as a result I grew weak n when temptations came in my life I failed.
I grew weaker,with a sense of guilt in my heart n without the courage to return back to my first love JESUS n ask for his forgiveness!2004-early 2009,I would say was a dark age in my life,without the love of JESUS.
Outside I was happy,enjoying every bit of my life,having many friends,but not having the strength to stand in the presence of JESUS!I was far from him or I thought so,but he never got far away he was just behind me,looking at me with all the grace he has!I noticed it late.
So,at last I noticed it,in early 2009,through many of HIS servants who came into our house(as my father had also become a pastor)n meeting after meeting,month after month,he reminded me of HIS FIRST LOVE,HIS GREAT UNFAILING N EVERLASTING LOVE.
And when I realised His love,I took all my strength to stand before him,face my Abba father,ask for his forgiveness,ask him to cleanse me n make me pure as HE is,ask his grace to surround me,to fill every single cell of my body with HIS love!
AND HE DID THAT!AMEN!
Today the only thing in my life which I can boast about is My relation with my Abba father,the love of my life,the only reason of my life!He made me righteous as he is!He made me pure as he is!He made me holy as he is!and is still making!Now I can stand before HIM just as a child stands before his father n asks for any favour he wants,boldly now I stand n ask n HE provides!
To testify i would tell u about the incident that took place on 10th Feb 2010,It was my graduation ceremony.I got ready took my hand bag n went to attend it to have a bash with all my friends whom i haven't seen since past 6 months!After the party was over n my gossips ended,I noticed that my handbag was missing.I searched here n there but all in vain,I was very tensed coz the bag contained my ATM card,PAN card,n key of my scooty!When i was very much stressed,I remembered my father is also with me,MY JESUS.I looked up to my father n said "father I am ur child,I have got ur seal,in the same way everything I own have your seal,so the things sealed by you cannot ne touched by devil"!Then i ordered angels of heaven GABRIEL n Michael," I am the daughter of JESUS n I command u to get me my bag,if u don't get,the judgement lies on my father's hand".I left my mobile no. with the guard of the college,n came home praising n thanking lord in faith for the bag.At around 1:00 am midnight my mobile rang when I picked up the phone,it was the guard saying we got ur bag !PRAISE GOD!When i reached college,I was amazed at what I saw my whole bag was open,but not a single penny was missing.HALLELUIJAH!
I praise my father,thank him for all the wonders he has done in my life n is still doing!
Today when i look back,I have been blessed by so much love that words cant express,temptations still come,problems still come,loneliness still comes,BUT THE ONE WHO HAS CALLED ME IS FAITHFUL!
HE GUARDS ME, COUNSELS ME,IS MY REFUGE,MY EVER PRESENT HELP!
JESUS,I LOVE YOU!!!
